There's something going on. There's something missing from my life. Is it that I am confused about my sexuality? Is it that I want a child & a family? Or do I just want to finally find a career that I enjoy?

So many big questions to answers & I just don't know where to start.

I feel like I need to quit work. I'm finding it difficult to cope with the shame of most of them knowing too much; for crying; having minor panic attacks & falling asleep in the office. For failing so completely at something.

I don't know where my place is. Where do I fit in? I feel lost & trapped at the same time. Every thought, every decision, every comment, I over-analyse to the point where I make a good thing seem bad - I convince myself I do everything for selfish reasons.

At the same time, I despise myself for being just the same as everyone else. I'm just the same.